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This month holds a lot of different emotions for me. The spring usually (not always) brings with it a break from the rain and cold weather of the late winter. Indeed, the sun seems to peek out and give us a taste of summer that I am always eager for. It’s always good as a Pacific North-Westerner to be reminded that the sun does actually exist. The celebration of Easter is always something to look forward to. The good news that Jesus paved the way and conquered death inviting us to follow him in this way and receive the gift of eternal life. As Jesus followers this means so much for our doctrine and theology. It’s not just egg day or bunny day or a day to eat too much candy and ham.

This month also holds a day of remembrance for me and my family. Two years ago, on April 18th our daughter Sophia died and like Jesus and so many others, resides in paradise. So, this is a hard month for me. On top of that, our youngest daughter was born April 26th, so we celebrate her second birthday as well.

Honestly, sometimes it’s hard to deal with the ups and downs of April. From happy moments to sad moments, to angry moments, to disappointing moments, to “why even try” moments. It all seems to be there and it’s hard to predict – add a quarantine to the equation and it becomes even more difficult.

Often, when we are in the thick of life, it’s hard to see past the moment and the emotion. Things feel real because they are and all we can do in those moments is cry out to God. And not in some fake self righteous way, but in a way that is also real (as real as those feelings). We must be free to express our emotion to God and not suppress it. Who better than Jesus himself to bear our burden? Jesus experienced our condition and emotions and in the moments of pain cried out to God. Everything we carry he once carried. In this and all ways Jesus is the perfect example.

Reverence: deep respect for someone or something.

When our minds and hearts are clear of these blinding and loud emotions, we can experience reverence. But without reverence, things get foggy. There will be times when things are foggy, it’s just a part of being human, broken by our own choices and nature. I have spent a lot of time getting help clearing my mind and heart with a professional counselor and will spend more in the future. I encourage you to do the same if you feel like you need help managing your thoughts and heart.

Reverence keeps us balanced along with thankfulness. In the same way you cannot have reverence when your mind and heart are polluted with heavy emotions, it is also difficult to be thankful. It’s hard to stop and in the quiet think about all of the things you are grateful for.

Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe…”
Hebrews 12:28

This has been my personal goal this month. To clear my heart and mind before God. To stop and think about all of the things I am grateful for. To remain reverent to God not only because he is all powerful, all knowing, creator of all things, the beginning and the end. But also, because he walked the earth, breathed the air, experienced pain, suffering, happiness and the ups and downs of April.

-Pastor Jason

1 Comment

  1. Terri Hiles on April 24, 2020 at 10:21 am

    Jason, I am so proud of you. To be able to express your thoughts and feelings about this month and all the circumstances you have been through . I know from my own experiences of grief how the Lord has brought me through many difficult times. He always uses our pain and grief and healing to encourage someone else so thank you for encouraging me I pray for you Love Terri